Growing Up Pains

No one ever said growing up would be easy. You always know that it is going to suck royally at times. What you don’t know is how much you’re going to hurt, cry, smile, laugh, be exhausted or ashamed. You can never be prepared for the roller coaster. This past week has definitely been a roller coaster. I’ve burned a bridge, felt homesickness for the first time, been inspired to go out and look hot, been fired from my first sorta of job and have gone through ups and downs with my own family.The bridge I burned was with a long time on and off lover and best friend. It had been a while since we’ve been anything but a disaster. I think it was time to burn the bridge and try to function as my own independent self. The homesickness was for North Carolina. Growing up as a kid I used to spend my summers or vacations in North Carolina. My grandparents had a vacation home in Spring Hope. It’s not as cute as a town as it sounds. However, it is the town that has many of my happy memories as a kid. It is also the town I long for. I might not miss Florida, but I do miss the South in general. It is a new feeling for me. I have gone out and dressed up. Got the dusty little black dress out of the closet, put on my favorite dark lipstick and partied it up with the girls. I was determined to feel good about my self again. Like all things in the growing up roller coaster, I didn’t stay up long. I got called into a meeting that resulted in me being fired from my position for “communication” reasons. I’m not going to say anything about this other then that it was bullshit. They even thanked me for my extra work on my way out. The family thing was just the usual. So it was definitely a crazy week for me. I can only manage to get through it with music, writing, gym time and a good new friend. I may be sad now but soon I’ll look back on it as just growing pains.

I.L. Knight


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