Hiraeth : What to do

Hiraeth: (n.)  a homesickness for a home to which you cannot return, a home which maybe never was;  the nostalgia, the yearning, the grief for the lost places of your past.

I know I started off really excited for break… I mean who wouldn’t start off excited for a break? Especially, from a place like McGill. Not that McGill is bad, just that McGill is hard. Either way, the start is always different then the road to the end. You start happy, labour around aimlessly to some eventual unsatisfactory end.

Right now I’m in that labour phase. I’m laboring around aimlessly, not knowing what to do with my time. All I know is that I’m tired from not sleeping, my head hurts and I still can’t find the motivation in myself to see the world as anything but mundane.

Even worst then that is that I have completely run out of books, movies, tv-shows or anime to watch. If I don’t have the focus to study, the energy to work out, the new entertainment to watch then what in the world am I supposed to do with myself?

All my friends are busy… My family in their own madness. My mother so enraged with me any conversation leads into a tearful breakdown.

Why am I even seeking to become better? I can just let myself fall into madness.

I.L. Knight

Hiraeth: (n.)  a homesickness for a home to which you cannot return, a home which maybe never was;  the nostalgia, the yearning, the grief for the lost places of your past.

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Kowareteiku Sekai – Girugamesh

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