So Much Work… Please Stop In :

Hi HI Y’all!

I have been giving up on the few precious hours of sleep I could possibly have to send you so  many updates this weekend and this upcoming week. SO MUCH. Just to give you the general rundown there was the addition of STARWARS and Soul Eater to the Fan Fiction page. Plus, DC Comics Outlaws was updated~~~ AND the super secret forced podcast I was made to do started this Saturday ( on the crowsnestco.blog ) For early access to any of these I shall remind you it’s just 1$ on a month on my patreon (https://www.patreon.com/ilknight )… Which you will notice had been updating like craaazy~ And will continue to do so as I have already ready to post stuff for Chronicles: Slaves of Desires and Confessions of a Teenage Poet which haven’t seen the light of day anywhere yet. So first access will be a thing for sure!

Please enjoy guys~

I.L. Knight

P.S. I’m actually working for a company that’s looking for bloggers, writers, illustrators and editors if y’all are looking. Just DM me~

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Busy Man – Billy Ray Cyrus

Patreon & More :

I’ve spent hours on the computer today. I wouldn’t be surprised if my eyes started bleeding from how much computer work I did… Most of it is on the back end BUT

Lordy, there has been so many updates on my Patreon….that isn’t even about if you love anymore. For one dollar you can literally see so much. So. go. please. see. it’s a dollar.

AND… Know somewhere in the back of your mind that COMING SOON =

The Crows Nest Co

&

Knights Publications

The Crows Nest Co is a site that will hold quite a few podcasts on it and the FUTURE MERCHANDISE OF SO MANY THINGS YOU WILL WANT TO BUY!

While Knights Publications is going to be the stop you will want to make if you intend to self publish!

I.L. Knight

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Money, Money, Money – Mamma Mia

Flash of Inspiration :

Hi Hi Y’all.

It turns out being over tired and hungry are a powerful creative force. Somehow, I came up with an entire draft for a new DC Fan Fic series, but strangely based on John Constantine. I’m posting the idea draft to see if anyone is interested.

Draft

I.L. Knight

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John Constantine’s Superhero Origin

Semi – Productive When Sick :

Hi Hi Y’all…

*cough cough*

So, I am super sick today and have not left bed. BUT I tried to be productive about uploading to make up for things. Here is an update flood!

First, we have three new chapter of American Horror Story Fan Fiction!

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Second, we have an old long poem I forgot to add to the site!

The Pyre

Third, we have a chapter update for my Marvel House of M Reprise.

Marvel Chapter 4

Lastly, we have my first drafts of the first three chapters of my Originals Fan Fiction.

Chapters 1 2 3

That’s probably, most likely, maybe, going to be the most you get out of me this weekend.

*Cough Cough*

I.L. Knight

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Alone – Marshmello

Exhausted :

Hi Hi Y’all,

I am completely and utterly exhausted. BUT. I have to push through for at least another 3 days…SO. Adding to the site today we have one chapter update for American Horror Story Fan Fiction:

Chapter 7

AAAAND… I have Part 1 of the updates for an orginal web novel series between Outremusings and myself, called H x E. There is now 21 chapters up!

H X E

Other news, I did one of those Buzzfeed thingies. I tried to go back to my past life and stuffs. So I asked myself (as instructed by the video) what have I brought with me, and this is what I saw:

The sight of tan bareless feet running….trees…I’m in a forest. I love the forest…It’s so beautiful….But I can’t think like that because I’m suddenly filled with worry…I’m fleeing from something…I can see my hands. There tan, rough. I think I’m Pacific Islander. Maybe South Asian…But my instinct says I’m Pacific Islander…. I can also feel smoke although I can’t see it….Just like how I can suddenly feel the ocean near me…I keep falling… I want to stop running…I’m exhausted…So exhausted… I just want it all to stop.. BUT..I know I can’t. I have to get where I’m going.I think I’m a screw up. That I’m not good at what I’m supposed to be good at. And now I know all these people depend on me getting there. And I hear the sound of someone crying, but I can’t see them. I didn’t know the pain could get worse…and as I run I see black start to cover my vision………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….

I think I died. I don’t think I made it. I think I let down those people. Because suddenly I hear lots of cries, and know a fire is crawling towards me. That I’m about to become ashes and return to the earth…I know I never made it………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….And then I’m back in that world tree. The accumulation of all mes is a little girl with a bunny doll. And I watch her drop this tiny old fashioned bunny. I watch it fall from this tree and place that is dark and light all at the same time to empty space. Falling until somehow I can no longer see it. The words in a voice I can’t recognize linger in my head, ‘Let Go’.

Welp. That was my one fun introspective update of the week. Also, I got called a Kyke today in class. I won’t get into it, but… I haven’t been called a Kyke since I was seven and in such rural South you questioned  everything about yourself…Still processing that. But I know I’m feeling some sort of pain.

Also, to my friend Outremusings, my ride or die, I’m sorry I’ve been falling into old patterns and not being a good friend. There’s no excuse.

My goal was to stop myself from feeling so overwhelmed. It was to control my anxiety and be here in the present with the people that love me and the people I love. And you are most definitely on the top of that list.

I really just want to feel like I’ve become successful in any capacity…I want my service dog.

I.L. Knight

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Shalom Chaverim

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[ Picture is COMichael Cohen’s ]

 

Side Note – Where I’m At :

What a few days it’s been. There is so much I want to say, get off my chest. First off, I want to say I am thankful for my friends. To use one of my friends words: “I’ve been burned by a lot of people, and now I shy away from people, because ‘people are crazy’.” It’s a good description that sometimes you need to hear from someone else. These are the friends I am thankful for. Because, they’ll say something like this when they know my anti-depressants are starting ware off or just if I need to hear it.

And I’ve been needing to hear it.

For one, there’s this boy. This innocent, kind, naive adorable boy. He legitimately likes me and is eager to get to know me. But whether its genuine me or genuine insecurities that wonderfully kind boy so soon has become someone that is boring to me. And I stay with it, not wanting anything serious, but allowing this poor boy to care. It’s a new comfortable warmth. I like it. And I know that makes me a bad person, but I like having someone for the first time in my life that is like eager to get to know me and be there for me. So, I have to face that soon.

Then there’s my health. It’s like in the last two months I have a basically constant flare up. Like FUCK MAN. Every time I feel good life has to be like here’s your weekly reminder of pain, pain and more pain. I’m so sick of it. I feel like every time I start to move past my rage phase some flare up happens and I get angry all over again. It’s just not something I know how to move past. How am I supposed to survive with a body that literally hates itself and is attacking me. And my mind! I have to manage all the pain, lack of mobility, and anxiety it causes with being  manic-depressive already. I’ve fought my depressing cynical nature since I was a child. It’s always been a struggle for me to not be the sort of person who would be numb as the world ended up dying in flames. Now, I have to manage anxiety attacks and even more loathsome self image! I mean come on. How am I expected to be a fully functioning adult here. Scratch that, how am I expected to be a semi functioning human.

Will my service dog applications really help me as much as I hope it will!

Then there’s my mom. My lovely, but bat shit insane mother. All of her pain and insecurities are just thrust out at level 10 viciousness at me so much. It was so bad the last few days I actually shut down from a panic attack. I couldn’t move for over an hour. There was just shaking and panic. After it, I was even shut down the rest of the night because the stress caused a fever and more inflammation.  It’s like all my family issues, especially the ones with my mom, are being thrust at me like some world ending spear.

A semi alive state of either sleeping too much, or not sleeping at all.

Then there’s my new fond fleeting hope that returning to acupuncture once a week may help manage all of this extra pain. Of course, I have to deal with everyone telling me that a legitimate medical practice is equal to a shaman convincing you to enjoy shoving needles into yourself.

Gah! I’m also like so lonely and need to start working again, so I can afford to be at the school I don’t even want to be at. WHY DO I NOT HAVE MONEY. WHY IS THE WORLD SOOOOO…. ugh. You know, I really do work hard. I wish sometimes there was a better more immediate pay off.

Oh. Some good news! A new web novel series has been added to my site. It’s called World Conquering Dungeon! The Prologue is up, so check it out!

Thank Y’all for reading,

I.L. Knight

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These Times – SafetySuit

 

NANO WRIMO 2018 … HERE IT IS :

Hi Hi Y’all!

As I’ve told quite a few of you (if you follow my twitter) I am a part of this years NANO WRIMO 2018! However, I haven’t used an official account or anything…even really did the strict daily goals… because my health has dipped right before. NANO is a wonderful tool and course to strictly follow for writers, but health concerns do come first. Which is why I am doing an informal NANO for myself.

My project for this year is allowing myself to finish the publication process of my debut novella Chronicles: A Tale of Shadow and Light. The teaser will be released Next Wednesday for sure, so look forward to it! As for the novella itself, it is completely done! All it needs is one final look over, me to choose a book cover and it will be available on Amazon in the coming weeks.

If that is accomplished I have a second goal! I want to get the outline for the sequel done- Chronicles: Slaves of Desires and find time to work on the web novels you see on this site!

Web Novels

Outside of just the writings itself, I would like to remind y’all that an awesome writing discord is in the works. The link is below. Please, stop in and join!

https://discord.gg/Yudt66P

This week I will also be updating one chapter of Fan Fiction. It will either be new Marvel character or an update of a current series. Yay for comic books.

I want to thank y’all for taking the time to read this update, and if you have a moment you can go watch me on Sunday mornings stream Smite, or spare a dollar to help out at my Patreon!

Thanks for everything,

I.L. Knight

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Born Ready – Dove Cameron

It’s A Great Time To Be A Writer :

So I was watching the 2018 panel of upcoming movie trailers from Comic Con and I had it just popped into my head: Now is a wonderful time to be writer.

Don’t get me wrong. We have definitely reached a point where getting published by a publishing company is one of the most crapshot corrupted works possible. Even when you may get published, there are so many ways for people to have more rights over your work than you do, copy you, completely make money off your work, and it goes on….

BUT, we also live in an era were it is possible to publish yourself. There are so many helpful platforms like WordPress to get yourself out there. Platforms like Patreon to help people earn money, or platforms like Amazon where you can self publish.

I think it is an amazing thing to be alive right now. Shoot, even if you are horrible with technology you can get a wee bit further than what you used to be able to do on your own.

That being said, here are some of the movies I am looking forward to:

Aquaman

Shazam

Glass

Invader Zim

Godzilla: King of Monsters

Star Vs. The Forces Of Evil

[ A Discovery Of Witches – b/c the advertisement popped up, so it counts ]

Those two DC movies actually look like they will be good. Thank G-d! (Please no one bring up or mention the Titans trailer).

That’s all I wanted to say for now. I will be uploading fan fiction tonight, so look forward to it!

I.L. Knight

P.S.  DEATH MAGE FINALLY GOT A MANGA~~~~

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Take This Job And Shove It – Johnny Paycheck

 

 

 

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World Cup Blues :

Let me just say this y’all:

I forgot how tiring it is to be on the grind…. or even attempting to be.

I went from having no work to do and just dealing with life frustrations to having to deal with life frustrations, a shit ton of work and attempts to be on my own work spree. FINALLY, I have managed to push through enough of it to post some stuff again. Hopefully, I won’t be to tired after tomorrow’s PR event to add all the drafts I have on the site up.

Item #1 : WOROOOOORORORORORORLLLDLDLDLD CUP

I was rooting for Croatia…. I put money on Croatia…. The match against France was so sad. France was so hungry for it and Croatia just seemed beat up and tired…. After so many days of pushing myself and making sure I was still up to watch the game at one in the morning… can I even call that a good game?

Item #2 : Stepping on up this fashion game of mine

It is no secret that after dealing with my chronic health issues I have 100% revereted into complete comfy clothes is my entire life fashion style. But it may be a secret to some people that there are a select few times were I look at fashionable people with a little bit of envy. I want the confidence to try a whole bunch of styles. I want to walk out with more than sweats and jeans sometimes and be comfortable in my own skin. Shanghai is a blessing for this in a way. Being here is not only inspirational – almost everyone you see loves fashion, from all over the world and decades- but motivational. I am remembering what it is like to want to do my hair and make up if only a little. Some pain is worth it sometimes. If the day isn’t that bad I don’t have to be rocking sweat pants.

Just a quick introduction is all…

Love,

I.L. Knight

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Princess Jellyfish OP

 

 

 

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