I Am Not Starfire

Hi Hi Y’all,

There’s been some buzz about one of DC’s newer graphic novel: I Am Not Starfire. Here’s the thing… I really wanted to like this more and not just find myself agreeing with the negativity around it.

But, I didn’t….

There are so many things I found wrong with this graphic novel. There are issues of self insert characters, poor story line, poor writing and disregard of previous ‘still cannon’ source material. It is the first and last two points I want to focus on, because problematic story lining and writing of graphic novels isn’t my forte and doesn’t seem as much as a problem to me as the other two points.

I’m going to start first with the disregard of previous source material. There is no problem with making up a new character for a comic. It is pretty standard to create random children and family members over the various arcs. However, in this case Starfire has a child with beloved DC hero Nightwing that bares too large of a shadow to be overlooked. The comic introduces you to “Mandy” instead of the heavily desired and asked for Mar’i Grayson.

Even if you compare these two characters on the surface you find problematic similarities. Mar’i is a black-haired and confident half Tamaranian. She is a member of the Outsiders and grew up without her mother’s shadow. Instead, she faced issues with her father and grandfather, the great and wonderful Batman. She was a character that was confident and played the role of Titan leader well. In contrast, Mandy is a fake black-haired young girl with weight issues, self confidence issues, no super powers, loner tendencies and a hard core emo phase. They are two drastically different characters for similar names and hair color- a point of connection that drives fans mad.

I agree that on the surface there is always room for both forms of superhero children stories but the Mar’i character was so beloved and desired that it makes the comparison on Mandy’s flaws even worse. Which, as an overweight young adult makes the self image issues even worse. Further, the desire to continuously keep up with a trend of making ‘relevant’ stories for youth is a huge pitfall trap for the character.

When reading the comic their was nothing I found I liked about her. Instead, she mostly got my pity, worry and lots of frustration. Even her final come to terms moment to fight for her mother just feels so contrived and annoying. You see no familiar bonds with a mother character that is heavily invested in bonds.

This all brings us to the main issue I have with this as a fellow writer: she is one of the worst examples of a published self-insert character I have seen in awhile and I am one of the queens of making self-insert characters. I really hate to agree with trolls on this issue but if you compare the physical appearance of Mandy to her illustrator and writer you cannot help but assume that these were her struggles and pent up feelings due to their similar appearances. Which sucks to even have to point out because if it was well done we could simply say so what.

It makes me feel crappy as a writer. My main DC Comics fan fiction character was actually the creation of me working through my own problems and feelings. I made that conscious choice of such a character but even I know that if I ever wanted to polish that character I’d have to remove myself from it. They have to be their own people and stand on their own without me being attached to it. When I read the graphic novel the first thing I did was flinch at my own writing choices. Was it okay for me to use my stories for not just tale telling but to work through thoughts and feelings?

Then it made me annoyed at her for making such a self insert character during the oppertunity to make either a Mar’i story or any other story then what we got.

All in all, when I have the moment to go back and update the DC Fan Fiction drafts I have up I will. Because….. I feel like I’d wallow in disappointment if I created self-insert characters that revealed themselves like Mandy.

Also, I’m pretty sure I’m never recommending this graphic novel to anyone.

I.L. Knight

Rolling In The Deep – Adele

Fan Fiction Friday [02/12]

Hi HI Y’all,

I’m baaack- sort of. Anyways, it has taken me forever within my schedule to finish this (and I didn’t manage to finish the chapter updates that were supposed to go along with it) but here is the character profiles for the ENTIRE OHIYON CLAN of the wonderful and amazing ALL SOULS UNIVERSE.

I hope you enjoy the characters and look forward to see which ones you’ll meet and when in the future~

I.L. Knight

I’ve Been Looking At Past Fan Fic Ideas

Hi HI Y’all,

I’ve been going over my Douluo Dalu Fan Fiction and my Is It Wring To Pick Up Girls In The Dungeon.

There’s been definitely some feelings I’ve had on them. Douluo Dalu and my other Wuxia novels always feel so hard to write. It’s like I know what I want to say but when I try to put it down in English I feel like I am writing a bad translation of a Chinese story that was never written. It’s really frustrating and annoying. Every time I try to edit it I get so angry I have to walk away. I’m trying to work on that.

In order to inspire/force myself to work on it I am leaking spoilers in hopes I get messages about it.

Tang Li Li real name is Xu Li Li. The drunk man is an ‘Uncle’ from the Tang Sect. Her mother was a Red-Eyed Ice Toad/ Sexy Onee-san. Dugu Jia is her love interest. Some but not all will achieve Godhood. No, her blue silver grass will not be like the others from the ‘Tang’ lineage.

As for Is It Wring To Pick Up Girls In The Dungeon I am immediately confronted with my inability to hate and discredit lolicon related issues. In anime it is so normal for me. However, every time I go over the characters I make I have an ‘Oh Crap’ moment and keep upping the age. Why? Because WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT IT YOU ARE LIKE SHIIIIIIIT!?!?!

I’ve recently upped the age of my main character, Alymae, to 16.

Personally, I don’t think that is much. I am facing the point where I need to make a decision on where I stand though with Lolicon and all the issues related to it.

News on that and the related changes to characters will be coming soon.

I.L. Knight

Douluo Dalu S2 OST

Star Trek Discovery [ Season 3 Episode 4 ]

Hi Hi Y’all~

As y’all know I am a huge Star Trek fan. When it comes to the Discovery series I honestly go up and down about it. Something about the whole Burnham is the future version of Jesus just doesn’t flow as well for me as obnoxious Kirk did for a six year old. However, I love the effort they put into character development. It reminds me of what I loved about Deep Space 9. I also love some of the risks that come with the change of tone CBS has done with the series.

Discovery’s Season 3 Episode 4 [ Forget Me Not ] has stood out for me though. My favorite species (outside of my obnoxious love for the Romulans & Klingons) are the Trill. A large part of that has to do with the Symbiotes. To me, they are a wonderful concept of how different cultures see ‘the end’ and its possible ‘continuation’ differently. It 100% gives me alien circle of life confirmations.

The way the episode showed the relationship between the joined host and symbiote was a cinematic master piece for me. I loved how they revealed the process of connection to the symbiotes and then to the past hosts. I really cried when I saw Adira’s ultimate joining with Gray.

Seeing Ronnie from Schitt’s Creek as a the spiritual leader was a hysterical side bar for me.

There are a few things that bothered me. The Trill species didn’t originally have spots. They had ridges. The spots were added later for aesthetic changes and personally I love the addition. Who doesn’t secretly have a weird moment of I want to be a spotted alien in their life? However, with CBS trying to really put attention to the details it was a missed opportunity to have a Trill with ridges instead of spots. This would confirm the fact that they are still a feature of some Trill and be a pleasant note. It also isn’t that hard to have a mix when you consider their budget.

Also, when it comes to spots they have changed them over the series’. It’s not like I mind the change but I do think how it came off in this episode in the close ups was a little too close and ‘non spot shaped’. When we see them we are reminiscent of spots on animals we know. Now they are starting to seem like a pattern for the sake of a pattern.

All in all, those are probably minor complaints on the episode. It’s more important to remember the fact that the relationship between the host and the symbiote is a beautiful and inspirational thing.

I’d like to take a moment to leave the episode to move to my own Fan Fiction. For those of you who know, and those of you who don’t, Outremusings and I have a Fan Fiction that comes from our original RP. We each had to make choices on characters, relationships and details within a time period of the Star Trek Universe. The timeline we went with was around Kirk era and the beginning of the Federation. It was important to show that the Federation once created wasn’t a perfect ideal but a continuous goal. It was also more conducive to playing around with our interests.

The main character I created was Cadet Wells. One of the early planned reveals is that she is actually a Human-Trill hybrid. There haven’t been many cases of them on the series and it presented a chance to be creative. For instance, when it came to the issue of spots I was able to simply say, “in natural childbirth between Trill and another species mutations on a chance can occur.” This, to me, was a good reason for her spots to be in an unusual pattern and aid in the ‘hiding’ of her heritage.

Further, the early timeline really presented me with a lot of opportunities to play around with a human hybrid character and a Trill character. There weren’t as many hybrids in the earlier years of the Federation and there was still controversy and emotions towards alien species. What kind of man would meet a Trill woman and move to the Trill homeworld?

I wanted someone who wouldn’t be so cookie cutter and in his partnership with a Trill woman present differing views on the Trill culture. I decided on a shady Greek man, whose backstory I cannot reveal at this time, and a controversial Trill woman.

The result coming together when I remembered that my original goal was to include a symbiote. At this time, no one knew about the symbiotes and the opportunity to explore the revelation of them was really exciting. Especially, if it came from the odd case of a hybrid Trill as a host.

I can say in regards to the family that both of her parents are interesting. The father comes from a less ‘wealthy’ and opportunistic area in Greece. The mother comes from an old school ‘wealthy’ family that are known for their difficulties, annoyances and advancement of Trill technology.

I can also say that the name of the symbiote is Pax. There was no way I could have a symbiote and not reference my favorite pair: Jadzia Dax. Plus, Pax means ‘peace’ and all the ironies around that are necessary for my life.

I really recommend Discovery Season 3 Episode 4 [ Forget Me Not] as a stand out must see for any Star Trek fan. I also recommend checking out the joint Fan Fiction for Star Trek. It is currently being worked on and soon may be reformatted into ‘episode’ format. There are also commissions for some of the characters and have plans for more to come.

*If you would like to help with commissioning images or specific Star Trek things please donate on Ko-Fi and let me know in the message.*

Live Long And Prosper My Lovelies,

I.L. Knight

Discovery Season 3 Episode 4 [ Forget Me Not ] – The Joining

Fan Fiction Friday [ 10/23 ]

Hi Hi Y’all,

The goal is to publish updates on Fan Fiction every Friday. Normally, I think it is my most stable section when it comes to updates, goals and schedules but lately it certainly has wavered. A lot of that has to do with schedule issues, stress, work life and health. It’s made it hard for me to keep a regular schedule at the moment.

I’ve been trying in the last two weeks to figure out within the down time how to create a more realistic and productive schedule for me till the end of 2020.

A lot of those decisions and thoughts will be updated here next week. As for Fan Fiction the schedule of Friday Updates should for the most part remain the same. It is the easiest thing for me normally to update weekly.

However, this week’s update has been cancelled. It was supposed to be about how I funnily was interested in updating 3 Fan Fiction based on the letter D: (1) DC Comics, (2) Douluo Dalu and (3) Star Trek via Discovery’s new season.

But as I said, I had to cancel that update. I’m thinking of updating A Demon Lord’s Tale: Dungeons, Monster Girls and Heartwarming Bliss and Harry Potter next week. I know I should have new character images by Juliet for Harry Potter soon.

Those two aren’t set in stone but they are the most likely. I hope y’all enjoy your Friday!

I.L. Knight

What Should Tomorrow’s Fan Fiction Friday Update Be?

Hi HI Y’all,

Tomorrow is the normal Fan Fiction Friday update and I can’t decided which to update! I’m just not feeling inspired towards any of my fan fictions today. Sigh

I have updates ready for Maou-sama no Machizukuri! ~Saikyou no Danjon wa Kindai Toshi~ and Harry Potter.

I could also sit down to fix the updates for Overlord, Eragon, Digimon, Avatar or All Souls Universe.

I guess I can also see if you guys want one of the others updated.

I’ll update something on Friday, of course, but I’d really like to hear from you this week.

I.L. Knight

Wake Me Up When September Ends – Green Day

Why Avatar On My Site ?

Hi Hi Y’all,

I got asked why I have so many Fan Fictions and why I can’t release more of them and on a steady schedule. Honestly, it’s because I get bored of the process of writing it all down and often get side tracked with life or other inspirations.

I did, however, get asked a question about my most recent update: Avatar. I was asked why I put it up if I wasn’t really updating it. Thanks for that by the way. Felt really good to read that…

I chose the Avatar series because I was in the process awhile back of re-watching both series. I wanted to know if the explosion of debates around the two of them were worth it. My first way through, I’m not going to lie, was filled with a lot of judgement towards Korra. That being said after re-watching Avatar Aang’s journey and then Korra’s again I realized I was hella biased.

Maybe that’s why my brain was challenging me to a BEING THE AVATAR IS SO EASY HUH!? So when I came up with an idea I thought why the hell not. I can jot down some notes and maybe put it on my site. Never thought anyone would be interested in Avatar Fan Fiction or have opinions on it.

Well, here’s my answer on why this Avatar and the series progression:

Awhile back I saw two videos from Johnny 2 Cellos about Avatar Aang and Avatar Korra. In it he wanted to prove why he believed Avatar Aang was the most compassionate Avatar and that Avatar Korra was the most resilient. Thoughts on all that aside, there is one point he pointed out that I really agree with: that while each Avatar is a reincarnation of the others they are also themselves their own person.

For instance, Aang was called compassionate because he did not believe in killing even Ozai. Instead, he took away his ability to bend. Now, an Avatar like Kyoshi would do what was needed and feel no qualms about it. Avatar Yangchen was also born as an Air Nomad and yet she believed the duty to the world was greater than the duty to herself; which means there is no argument for saying it is the influence of their natural born elements and their corresponding environments either for the distinct differences between the individual reincarnations. Their decisions come down to the individual in each life time.

In the case of Korra, she was called the most resilient for facing consistent and extreme personal challenges; all while having to embark on the new age of publicity and media. You could if you wanted to try to speculate on how Avatar Aang’s personality and choices may differ but in my point of view that is a waste of time and more about comparing the series. Aang wasn’t around to make those choices and if he was they were completely different situations. His decisions could of radically changed when dealing with public pressure or not being able to bend at all. Further, Aang was an Air Nomad and Korra, while I believe does not display much of the stereotypes of the Southern Water Tribe, is from the Water Tribe. That gives them completely different upbringings and philosophies to start from. Which may not affect the personalities of the individual reincarnations but does affect the environment and learned behavior they grew up on.

In the case of imagining a new Avatar those where the things in my head: the Avatar’s are their own individuals, their background helps define their current self and that they make their own choices. I am a huge cliche of a nerd so of course my brain jumped ahead one to the next fire bending Avatar. Timeline wise that’s a pretty big jump in society. Which was both annoying and interesting, because I got to imagine an Avatar in our modern society. Instantly, my brain was like damn Earth Benders are now scarily dangerous and completely terrifying. *Hint Hint*

But what about fire benders? What about their history of trying to move on from being the empire of major war crimes and military power? What about being a monarchy in modern society? What about their bending abilities place in a world where power and light doesn’t need flame?

As a child, I often wondered what it would mean to be born with no purpose. It’s a weird question for a kid I know, but I was always told what my purposes where: to educate myself, to succeed in the views of society, to be there for family. Those three things have been my definition since I was a child. I can’t compare it to being the Avatar but I could say I was told my purpose young and was expected to fill it. Avatar Aang chose to runaway from his expectations in the beginning; while, Avatar Korra ran straight towards them. In the case of the two of them I’d say I started as Korra. Run blindly into the future as it has been told.

Maybe that’s why when I imagined an Avatar I imagined one that had difficulties similar to Korra: having an idea of what your purpose is that realizing through challenges that your purpose is your’s own. But, to be honest, I also see myself very differently from Korra and when I write a character I always give them something from me or someone I know within them. So, when I wrote Rina what I imagined was someone who dealt with identity issues and such but in the beginning how I would of thought in certain challenges. Then from there I let her learn her own lessons and develop into her own new person.

In the original series the first book was Water. I wanted to keep the theme from the original series and make the first book Water as well. I think it really fits with the beginning of the Avatar I imagined because of water is. It is a reflection. You see what is outside physically and can change it. You also see what is inside and are forced to confront it. You may heal it if you want or maybe just use it to become aware of it.

I wanted the Avatar I created to have a backstory that would need to be reflected first in water for both herself and the audience. In a modern world the Avatar takes on a whole different meaning. In this case the Avatar has reasons on why they don’t want to fulfill those meanings and so a reflection of the past shows the start of the development for the future.

This Avatar is her own individual person so her backstory has to be a past different from those Avatars that came before her. I will say upfront that besides having parents that don’t like the idea of the Avatar at this point of time she also will have a deep seated personal reason to not want the role. It is the loss of people closest to her: the pain that comes with expectations.

To me, that is a reflection of Water that is worthy for a start.

I don’t want to say more because this isn’t about spoiling anything. More like trying to answer a few questions asked of me. However, I will say that if I can get through it all there will be a Book of Earth, A Book of Fire and then a Book of Air in the order of the bending cycles. The Book of Earth will be about the world and its foundations. Are things sturdy and solid? The Book of Fire is about life, inspiration, creativity. Is the world and its people set for destruction by their own actions? The Book of Air is about intellectual thought, reason, understanding and memory. Has everyone understood what’s been going around them and prepared for the memories they have created?

And, yes, I will be referring back to the ideas I came up with for the Earth bending Avatar that would of come before her. He may have died young but his decisions have played a huge part in the world and in Rina’s decision.

Does that make any sense or answer any of that question?

Maybe, sometimes, a part of me just wants to think back to a time where I believed there wasn’t something funny about believing their are special people.

Also, fire is fun.

I.L. Knight

Avatar Opening Cycle

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