Updates In Honor Of Things:

Hi Hi Y’all,

I’m baaack~~~

Let’s get the ball rolling with today’s 4 topics!

1: Star Vs. The Forces of Evil:

Ok guys, just so you know from jump I am a TomStar shipper. As amazing as the ending of the series was the loss of that and the loss of magic was just too much for my heart (even though everyone was crazy irresponsible and magic probably should of disappeared- poor all magical beings the Mewmans just murdered).

I have 0 ability to write healthy great inspiring friendships. Star and Marco to me was like the ultimate written pair of that inability I have. I didn’t see the need to have them have to be a couple. They could of stayed their own people. I will say, though, in any case based on the relationship Star had with Tom they should have broken up. Seriously, Disney that is not an appropriate example of a relationship to show children.

2: Game of Thrones:

Tonight is the final episode. This season has been a great concept awfully rushed and not fleshed out properly. I SWEAR TO G-D THAT IF THE LEAKS ARE TRUE AND BRAN BECOMES NIGHT KING I AM FLIPPING OUT. He would be a horrible disastrous unfit King.

I once again reaffirm that, besides Tyrion, Sansa is now my favorite character.

3. In Honor of HBO’s new series His Dark Materials, based off an amazing fantasy series written by Philip Pullman, I may be doing a short fan fiction for it:

The current rough draft idea is a young girl of a man who owns a bookshop on the border of the bad part of town and the okay part of town. The opening would be something like this:

The door opened quickly, revealing the sounds of bells and wind. A young girl with messy strawberry hair and mismatched school tights entered the dusty shop. The shop was both bigger than it seemed, as was the case of the entire old building, and smaller than it seemed due to the massive amounts of books stacked everywhere. The presence of a large lioness sleeping off in the side also effected the dimensions quite a bit.

“Dad.”

A tall salt and pepper haired man walked out from behind a doorway. A soft smile appearing on his face.

“You’re back sooner than expected.”

The girl huffed her way towards the counter. The tiny rat that had been hiding in her coat scuttled his way out of her clothes and onto the wood. His form shifting quite quickly into that of a bored looking lynx.

“There was no club activities today.”

He smile appeared to grow even gentler.

“I see. Do you want to help with the shop?”

She shook her head no.

“There doesn’t ever seem to really be a need too.”

The older gentleman faked a wince.

“Who taught you to be so mean to your father.”

“Certainly not mom.”

The gentle atmosphere turning somewhat somber and still.

“Neith.”

She looked down annoyed.

“I know, I know. She’s on an adventure.”

The room silent till she continued her words.

“What sort of adventure requires a child’s entire lifetime, though….”

Her father cracked a small smile.

“I imagine an adventure that is quite fun.”

4: Confessions Of A Teenage Poet:

It’s a sappy lame poetry book that y’all should check out! It is released late this week on Amazon Kindle!

I.L. Knight

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His Dark Materials – HBO Season 1 Trailer

A Tribute To Daemons

*Cover by the fabulous @melo_dekelsa *

Why Things Have Been Like They Are :

Hi Hi y’all!

You know sometimes I feel like the Queen of Excuses. It’s not that I mean to be really. I am very aware I have a natural born trait to resist ownership and responsibility and thus it needs to be managed… I guess, the thing is I always feel like I owe an explanation. That is probably due to a whole crapload of childhood trauma and shitty insecurities but that’s not really important here. What’s important is not only do I cripple myself but I cripple the relationships I have with others by being shitty with follow throughs and commitments.

I think, for awhile, this will hopefully be my last explanation:

More and more I have been taking both more frequent and longer absences. Part of it is due to health. I can’t say anything more than learning to live a life with a chronic illness seems to be a forever challenge. The ups are high and the downs are low. Dealing with being in my 20s and being bipolar along with it just seems to be this almost immeasurable task.

However, there are two bigger stressors in my life than even my health problems: school and family.

When I graduated high school university was this magical thing I was heading too. It was a place where I’d have everything I ever wanted and be an ambitious bad ass semi adult. I mean reality does kick in, challenges do present themselves and you do eventually become an adult. Going to the challenging school wasn’t what I thought it to be. Looking back, as thankful as I am for the lessons it’s taught me, I don’t think McGill was the university for me. It doesn’t flex to those who need flexibility. How smart I thought I was doesn’t matter in the end if I can’t handle the lifestyle of a proper student. I’ve always had a major thing about failure and learning to live that failure is okay in a high paced environment with many geniuses KILLS a soul. Everything school related becomes so much more emotionally and time wise to me.

Honestly, just sitting here waiting for my grades and taking my first test of the summer session has me dying in agony…

The second reason is of course family. I mean… guys. We all know I have family problems. However, lately I can’t help growing more and more annoyed. I am incessantly put in a position where, even when they say no, I have to end up as the family manager from another country. Things had gotten so bad my grandparents were preceding with divorce options (instead of just shouting about it) and still they do nothing. AND YOU KNOW WHY WE GOT THERE!

We got to that because my Aunt who lives with them bought a new house and didn’t want to move out her old furniture…. The same furniture that is representative of a ten year hoarding habit that has infuriated my grandma to no ends. The only funny side note is that she’s moving from there house to a house two miles up the road and three doors down from my mom’s house.

People in my family, I swear, do not actually separate from the uterus.

That drama cost me 4-5 days of major anxiety, panic attacks and being the only one who calms down my grandma.

Family is too difficult sometimes.

Anyways, today is part 2 of my first summer session exam. I have recommitted to yoga and started to seriously meditate again.

Hopefully, I can remain calm enough to get shit done for y’all~

I.L. Knight

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Family Portrait – P!nk

Marvel- Endgame :

Hi Hi Y’all

It’s no secret to anyone that in a rousing debate of DC vs Marvel I will always argue the greatness of DC comics. However, I think we all know that cinematically Marvel has been killing it these last few years (and that’s including how over super hero movies some of us are.)

I was forced to see the first part by friends and I can say I wasn’t all that impressed. Besides the major squeals of seeing all the characters come together the pacing felt off, rushed and awkward. The story line didn’t draw me in the way I was expecting and it definitely felt like the whole thing was just made to show epic movie effects of Hero vs. Thanos.

HOWEVER, Endgame was very different. I have no idea how to do that tab that covers up spoilers so DO NOT read the part below if you haven’t seen it and don’t want spoilers. DO NOT. I have separated the sections!

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Endgame thoughts & spoilers

I will not say Endgame was perfect movie. It was definitely better than part 1 though. The pacing and story made a lot more sense in the massive part of the movie being a huge battle. AND THE BATTLE WAS AMAZING. When I saw my Black Panther cast walk out first I was so hyped. Shuri for the win~ Then when all the portals opened from Doctor Strange I was like this is great. We are getting the arrival of almost every character of the movie series so far!!! [ Minus of course those who died already: ‘Loki’, ‘Black Widow’, ‘Vision’, ‘Quicksilver’ and ‘Yondu’ ] The only disappointment I really had with the battle was not getting good views of those who were fighting between our lovely space crew and a reveal that Loki is indeed alive (whether he fought or not he is our beloved god of mischief!).

HERE COMES THE MAJOR SPOILER-REMINDER TO JUMP AHEAD! Even I, who was completely non-invested in the Marvel universe, cried at the end.  When it comes to the comics, pre-Robert Downey Jr., Iron Man was a different (more boring) character. However, the comics shifted along with the movies and the character got much more interesting, mostly because it became more like Robert Downey Jr. You could say that out of all the heroes Marvel introduced the starting hero Robert Downey Jr (cough * Iron Man* cough) was always a stand out.

I found his solo movies good but not spectacular, However, every time he featured in another movie Iron Man really shined as a character. The character had wit, sarcasm and a sort of anti-hero like vibe. Iron Man consistently went head to head with the goody two shoes and the controversial political bodies. He exhibited what it meant to be in a morally grey area and have to make the best decisions you can in a moment. My favorite part of him was how much everyone thought he would never be the main hero at the end of every event. Even when he proved himself in New York the idea was still Captain America or Thor.

He was probably the character I was most invested in and he died. The character I wished for more than anything (especially, after seeing his daughter) to survive died. Once again, it was him – the starter, the beginning, the sarcastic asshole- who made the last sacrificial move. As a writer, I had to say that was a brilliant move. The beginner was the ender. The character revealed its complete development and the whole universe had to acknowledge what Tony Stark really was ( the movie could have given him a statue though).

As a comic book lover and a viewer though, I was torn up inside. I actually cried in the theater. One of the characters I most identified with made the choice I think I would make and got the result that I expected to happen. I couldn’t help but cry that it was the human being who used his brain to get more powerful was the ultimate savior. As much as I love overpowered crazily gifted heroes the ones who always inspire me the most are the ones who are just people. It’s great to be sparkly and all but that’s not real even in their universe. A guy who was lucky to born into a wealthy family used his opportunities to make even more opportunities. Other people got to benefit and grow from them and in the eyes of the world grew past him. But to me, the man who provided the opportunities, he was a silent-ish guide and a person who no matter his flaws would make the hard call at the end of the day is the best character out there. At the very least, He should of been more worthy than Captain America to at least pick up that hammer once. 

Alright, I’ll end spoilers here.

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So, my recommendation is that you’ll probably enjoy the movie and should go see it.

Advice from little ‘ol strange me,

I.L. Knight

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Best Of Iron Man

 

*** Image by Elijah O’Donnel***

Life Updates & Story Ideas:

Hi hi y’all,

I was sitting at my computer and was dying in the agony of having nothing to watch when the odd suggestion of Blood Ties came across my screening. I’m not going to lie, after binging the two seasons I have many comments. Is this a 90s show? It feels SUPER 90s. Why is the tension between Henry and Vicki written so awkwardly but still makes me rage about them not having SEX yet! Henry was objectively (even with awkward lines and plots) very yummy. Also why is your relationship with Mike so awkward? Will his new female partner learn the truth and handle it without trying to kill Henry like he did? Or Vicki? Why does Coreen have such awful taste and horrible luck with men? Again, I’d take a Henry.

But, it is more important to push these aside for a moment and remember that when it comes to me and dead/dying shows I immediately wonder about remakes. If I was to resurrect Blood Ties then what should be done?

Here is my rough remake version for 2019 peeps:

(1) Change Vicki to be a uni student that has a dead family member who was a cop. Have her going blind become a more prominent point in the series since TV has started to FINALLY get a bit better about showcasing that.

(2) Make Mike be an older childhood friend who is already a well known or great young cop.

(3) Coreen should be younger and less super goth looking. This isn’t 90s cliche moments.

(4) Keeping Henry as he was is fine just give him better lines.

(5) Just in general be better about plot. The monsters and flow got a bit… WEIRD towards the end.

BUT NONE OF THIS MATTERS SINCE I JUST REMEMBERED IT’S BASED OFF A BOOK. Oh well~

Moving on, I also recently saw Shazam. It was good. The flaws were covered up by the fact that having a good DC movie in awhile was a shock, having an actor who played a child well instead of being weird, a well assembled support cast and the hint of the SHAZAM FAMILY AT THE END!

That also got me thinking… I need to be better about my writings (time was, commitment wise and aspiration wise).

One day I don’t want to just see my books on shelves, but TV shows I’ve made or movies I’ve helped write. I want to stand as a creator that excels in their craft.

Soooooo….Basically….I guess I’m saying… I’m back?

I.L. Knight

P.s. buy my web novel (https://www.amazon.com/Tale-Shadow-Light-Chronicles-ebook/dp/B07L5F6DXZ) please?

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DARKNESS – Ultimate Epic Music

 

 

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Last Major Fan Fiction Updates :

Hi Hi Y’all!

So, I am entering massive paper and finals flood for school and will have no time for like anything most likely. McGill can be a sucky school experience. In order to make it up to you guys I am releasing an ENTIRE VOLUME 1 of Fan Fiction for Maou-sama no machizukuri!~Saikyou no danjon wa kindai toshi! That’s 26 chapters and an epilogue completed!

I ALSO prepared OG artwork by DorkMasterXtreme of the main character for my Originals Fan Fiction. It is currently just a post of rough draft pieces written for a story, but will be one of the next Fan Fictions tackled and cleaned up after my finals.

Thank You Guys For Understanding!

I.L. Knight

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A Poison Tree – The Originals

Fan Fiction Updates Round 3 :

Hi HI Y’all!

Here is Day 3 of Fan Fiction updates!

Avatar : @chocjax character image !

Ko-fi Exclusive Web Novel Chapter 3

Maou -sama no Machizukuri!: Chapter 18 !

Enjoy, the updates !!!

I.L. Knight

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Top Anime Songs Everyone Should Have on Their Phones

 

Mass Fan Fiction Updates Continue :

Hi Hi Y’all

As promised, here is the next flood of updates for the fan fiction/ web novels on the site.

Harry Potter: Reformated + addition of three new character profiles -> Autumn & Mina , The Beauty & The Crow / The Story Of Dragons

Chapter 2 in the new Legend Series !

The Originals: Reformatted the messy draft to give you a proper Chapter 1

AND

Orginal artwork from the amazon @Eymbeeyo will be on that series page soon!

LASTLY

An idea for a web novel has been updated on the site: The Otherworld Crazed Witch Isn’t Crazed At All with its first Chapter!

I.L. Knight

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Wolves – Selena Gomez

 

Back Pain & Why Tattoos :

Hi Hi Y’all,

I know more and more I talk about chronic illness. It’s not meant to just be a purge, a kvetch or a notice for recognition. Lately, my flare up have just been getting worse and longer. All the advice doctors gave and the awkward hard to explain moments just seem worse. More then ever, I am just tired. So very tired…

A friend of mine is coming up to visit me in April and I am so excited to have someone see where I go to University and be an understanding friend. I had been debating when ( and more importantly) where to get a back tattoo I have always wanted.

When I was a kid I was obsessed with Yakuza movies, samurai movies and ronin movies. I loved the traditional colorful tattoos on them and the values that seemed to come with them. As I got older, learned more about what it meant and how it was perceived I didn’t want such a large piece anymore. For awhile, I thought about abandoning the idea completely.

Then I got my diagnosis and I started to reconsider. What eventually solidified the desire to get the tattoo was this increasing problems. My drugs are increasing and surgeries that seemed far off seem sooner and sooner. More and more I feel like I am missing out and that I’ll miss out on things even more in the future. Weighed down by everything around me and having it all be unseen is taking a bigger toll on me. I can do less then I used to at the moment and no one really sees it or understands it. More and more I have to come to terms with being seen by the average person as a ‘disappointment’.

It’s these things that make me stop caring about some of the things I used to. If I feel like life is short and changing so much for me I have to at least do the things I enjoy? A giant back tattoo or some crazy visual representation of all my problems probably won’t do much for me, but that doesn’t mean I can’t stick to aesthetic and feel as if I did something to show it.

My back has two curves and a tiny hump on my neck. At the top of my spine there are signs of bones thinning and possibly going to fade away. As you got to the bottom of my spine fusing has started, my hips are out of place and my legs are now two different lengths. None of this can be seen or understood unless I give up and say I want to walk around like Quasimodo so people notice me. That is always going to be the reality of my back. Anything from now on won’t be seen.

I like small minuscule and thin lined tattoos. Normally, I don’t want color and just want simple black. I’ve known since I was small I would want tattoos that represented ideas that meant a lot to me in life. Knowing this it isn’t hard for me to know what sort of tattoo I’d get on my back.

At the top of my neck, I would want in thin black lines Vegvisir. Vegvisir is one of the most popular Nordic charms. It wishes for the person to never lose their way in storm and bad weather even if the path is unknown. I don’t think there is anything more symbolic of everything going on then that. However, there is one more reason. My great grandma’s mother was a Swedish Orphan. She had come to the U.K. and met a Spanish Jew. They married and moved to the U.S. Apparently, unlike her husband and the efforts she put into now being Jewish and raising Jewish kids she never gave up her belief system. She was very very very Christian. I’m talking crosses and bloody Jesus pictures everywhere sort of Christian. Yet, there was one thing that my great grandma remembered seeing even when she didn’t know the name of it until I told her: Vegvisir. In a legacy where only food and some old myths managed to be passed down, my great grandma could vaguely in her dying times remember seeing Vegvisir as a child. Now how could I argue with that? Jewish or not, my great grandma read me Nordic myths as I was growing up, joked how if it was true Odin was 100% cooler than Zeus, and how we were meant to be tough because it was just in our blood. I’m traveling rough waters right now and maybe that means it isn’t just about being Jewish, but remembering all beliefs that helped create me.

Underneath Vegvisir is the real highlight though. Running in small thin lines will be the I Ching and its 64 changes. For a person of my aesthetic and weirdness (and love for Asian culture) what is better then 64 line patterns each symbolizing a different part of early understanding and divination? Nothing. Seriously, nothing at all. My life is certainly one of change and phases, of fortunes and dis-fortunes, and of joy and sadness. These line patterns will follow the crooked path my spine takes all the way to my tailbone. Maybe it will seem funny to some, but to me it’s a little part of the truth. And when these inevitable surgeries come, the scars appear on my back and the fight through new types of pain begins, I have marks of it all. Little lines that exist as part of scars and as part of the journey.

Going through all of this has taught me that living behind a mask is no longer something I’ll really be good at again. My body demands of me the truth. It demands that I grow past the angry cynical jaded girl I was when I was young and try to find the joy of life. It tells me that it will not tolerate lies and will only tolerate truth.

Don’t I have to do it then?

I.L. Knight

P.S. Odin really is way better. Norse > Greek everyday <3

Vegvisir

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I Ching

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Pagan Folk Music – Vegvisir

Fan Fiction Updates:

Hi Hi y’all!

In celebration of my upswing in health and ability to do things again PLUS an increase of my rps with the lovely @outremusings I will be updating fan fiction as much as possible for a bit.

Starting with the first chapter of the series  Legend : TAKANO Masaharu !

It’s a super interesting series by Kannazuki Kurenai.

Here are the chapter updates of current on going:

Star Trek –  72 & 73

Harry Potter – Chapters 46 -> 51 AND IN CELEBRATION OF 50+ CHAPTERS THE CHARACTER PROFILE WITH TEMPORARY FACE CLAIMS!

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Best Day Of My life – American Authors