Hi Hi Y’all…
Let’s get it out there: the world seems really fucked up for everyone right now. And I’m letting y’all know it probably won’t change for awhile. It’s a time where we all need to get together and be there for each other. Remind each other of all the things that make us laugh even though we are stuck home or even that it’s okay to be a bit blue for awhile.
As for me…
Well, I am almost done with my massive loads of schoolwork and am FINALLY going to return to my own new sort of schedule.
I’M GETTING BACK TO WORK.
So, guys… Here’s the new outlook plan for this summer: Chronicles series book 2 & 3, Finding Valhalla, Fan Fiction Splurge, Podcast Beginning at thecrowsnestco.blog and HAVING SOME FUN ADEVENTURES~
Wishing Y’all the best,
Rise Up – Andra Day
Hi Hi Y’all~
So GUESS WHAT? I almost died again! Maybe… I could of just been badly injured…. ANYWAYS… SERIOUSLY I CAN’T BELIEVE WHAT HAPPENED.
I live in a business and bank district so even in the winter time I’m expecting to have at least some streets salted and regular winter codes of conduct followed. BUT NO.
There in a moment someone didn’t follow the established rules AND started to push snow and ice off the roof a pretty large building.
BY SOME MIRACLE, or some weird sixth sense I never knew I had, my feet stopped moving all of a sudden AND RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME a giant block of ice exploded on the ground.
The piece of ice was larger than my fat cat and if my feet hadn’t stopped all of a sudden it would of no doubt landed straight down on my head.
I’m not going to say I had an Oh My God Life is precious and I need to to suddenly be pro life and motivational speeches moment…. But I have certainly have done in a recheck.
Everything has been pretty good and happy for the last few weeks for me. It’s been like getting back on the right track and picking up speed in the right direction again. AND THEN THIS!?
I don’t know how to take it. I’m not a super religious person or a completely nonreligious person so it’s not like there’s a book that tells me how to take the event in a specific way. So I’m just going to take a moment and pick a meaning… I guess?
For me, I think I’ll take this as a grace or blessing or a reminder that even in happy times I have to keep to a schedule. This way I won’t continue my trend of getting complacent and forgetting to do the steps that let me be happy in the first place.
Mhm. That’s the reaction and lesson I’m taking from this experience.
Anyways, Can you believe I almost died again?
I’m only 23, y’all.
P.s. I couldn’t help screaming ‘Holy Shit’ in the moment~
If I Die Young – The Band Perry
Let me say this, I love my mom. And I’ll say that as many times as I need to so it could be understood.
Our relationship is always this up and down roller coaster I’d rather not have chosen for myself.
The problem is it always feels like I am giving 80% of the effort to adjust or change a behavior to make the other person happy. That’s why all those good intentions and feelings she have always fall short. Especially, when I was younger.
Things have been better between us the last year and I honestly think it is because I have done a lot of growing up on my own over the last few years. Growing out of the childhood phase and into a more adulthood one means I’ve developed better control over how I process and unleash my feelings on her.
But something she said tonight is just one of those clear triggers that can undo years of progress: you may have to give up school for a year.
I had to say goodbye immediately out of not knowing what I would say. Because I have worked SO HARD to be where I am in life. SO FUCKING HARD. And I’m not going to even go into to it here because I don’t even know how to.
BUT I HAVE TO AT LEAST SAY WHAT WAS SAID TO SOMEONE IN SOME FORUM.
Because I am so scared of bottling these feelings inside me when I am still off my medication. I am so scared that these words came at a time when I am using all of my will power to remind myself how hard I’ve worked to get to where I am and how happy and proud of myself I should be.
It’s so hard for me to recognize that I am a person who wants to be alive because they can live for things sometimes and this is just comes rolling off a tongue so easily. Without even a consideration to the effort I put in to just waking up and not thinking it’s okay if I die today.
I love my mom but I also have times I really fucking hate her.
[ Confessions of a Teenage Poet ]
Alyssa Lies _ Emily Osment
Hi Hi Y’all,
I got to say it’s a weird feeling when you don’t have hope towards something but receiving a normal action still somehow gives you that feeling of disappointment.
My family has no idea how bad I recently got and I wasn’t planning on telling them. However, I was just in the mood today were I needed to talk. That’s all.
But as usual the second I called my mom all I heard was her problems. Her dissatisfaction with the rest of the family and what went wrong with her day.
I mean it’s not something that’s a big deal or should be. It just feels systematic I guess? Heavy on my shoulders and back.
Physically, I can feel my spine collapsing even more into me and myself hunching over. In all of these cases, never once has she ever asked how I am. Even if I texted her before something like ‘I want to go home.’
I’m not … or was expecting anything, but I don’t know why there’s still a part of me that feels that hurt every time. A small voice that always seems to sigh out,
“What about me?”
Somewhere I Belong – Linkin Park
Hi Hi Y’all~
Do you know it is common behavior for those in/out of mental health facilities to have developed habits of organization or habitual scheduling (At least those are my current words to describe it at the moment)?
I always saw it as an attempt to keep order and control within the chaos of feelings and emotions.
I don’t know if I ‘m right. I am by no means and expert or consulted one about it.
I can tell you that if this is true than I’m doing something similar to them.
I’m looking for order and control.
Since I will be off my mental health medication for an even longer amount of time I have to use the spur of clarity to form direction and purpose. In a controlled manner.
I have decided to focus on my site and the small projects I had on the side lines in order to help me stay organized until I can get back on medication. That means….
IT’S GOING TO BE AN UPDATE BANZAI FOR 2 MONTHS~
Look forward to it y’all! All those little tiny side projects and cute things that could make everything better has been pushed to the front of my agenda !
Hope you enjoy them all,
Work From Home – Fifth Harmony
Hi Hi Y’all~
It’s Halloweeen y’aaallll~
I was saving this upcoming [ #FFF ] Fan Fiction Friday for this exact day. Let us liiiive in the fantasy for one day of horror and treats. I have prepared for you all and for our crazy little Sam quiet a selection.
20 + New Chapters of Harry Potter
1 New Chapter of Eragon
2 New Chapter of Shadow Hunters
1 New Chapter of American Horror Story
1 New Chapter of A Demon Lord’s Tale
[ COMING SOON ] New Chapters in Chilling Adventures of Sabrina
Also, to remind you all and get your spirits up… Remember TOMORROW NANO WRI MO BEGINS~
ARE YOU SIGNED UP WITH BLOG? ON DISCOURSE? WITH ANYONE?
You should check Twitter for groups.
~ This is Halloween ~
Hi HI Y’all,
I’m just thinking about some random lines that appeared in my head. They had this soft hum I haven’t thought of.
I wonder what they know?
I wonder what they see?
Is it the tares in me?
Why do I feel so low?
Why do I feel
Why do I feel
Why do I feel
I feel so low
I don’t know guys? Just some random words set to a random tune in my head.
Falling Away From Me – Korn
Hi Hi Y’all!
Since, this is my first writing camp I haven’t really had it planned well. BUT I AM FIXING IT NOW! Until, the end of June I will have a post a daily reminder of the monthly camp and a day challenge to keep yourself going!
Reach out to any of fellow writer’s you know and check in! Tell them about your WIP and what it inspires in you.
The Golden Girls Theme Song
Hi Hi Y’all,
I am sitting here in the laundry room, trying to multi-task, and decide how I should fix my recently worse than normal time management problems. I find the fact that an annoying building resident has decided to open and spread out three bags of laundry over the table I am sitting at a highly distracted and detractor in this mission of mine. Never the less, I shall work my hardest to execute a decent and productive plan for the rest of my summer and its expected achievements. Let us begin with the goals, shall we:
- Finish the updated Chronicles: A Tale of Shadow & Light
- Have the print version out sometime within June
- Publish the ebook version of my poetry book, Confessions of a Teenage Poet out within a month’s time.
- Begin a steady schedule of Podcast episodes
- Since once a day doesn’t seem to be happening, at least three blog posts a week with a hopeful set days for each
- Steady and predicably timed updates of Fan Fiction & an increase of Fan Portal chapters
- Major desired updates of all my sites
- The introduction of a proper beginning of my publication house, Knights Publications
- The completed draft of the web novel series, made with the brilliant outremusings, H x E Volume 1
- Lose at least 20 lbs
- Get a B- in my Japanese course and return in a semi-successful manner to a McGill student.
- If I have extra money, and possibly raised my credit score, I would love to finally get beginning level decent equipment so I can start streaming again.
- Finish copyrighting all of my works and tittles
- Becoming even more organized within my life and increasing my adorable DIY projects
- Save money for a trip either this upcoming winter break or next summer
- Hold my first meet & greet or book launch party in Montreal/ get in more book stores as a ‘local author’ ; possibly without the need to dress up and present myself as the stereotypical image of an ‘indie’ author.
- To work on my efforts towards friendships and going out. My penssion for social isolation does unsubjectively need to be corrected.
- To increase the time and attention I put towards taking care of my mind and body’s health.
- To challenge myself to not only dress up in nicer clothes but the clothes I always wanted to wear and was too scared to before.
- TO KICK ASS AND LOVE MYSELF.
So, we can break down a few of these I think. The first is a simple explanation of the draft site The Crows Nest Co (Co as the regular site was already taken by some bastard who was considerably inconsiderate of my personal affairs). My podcast is amply named the Crows Nest as to highlight my peculiar and quirky nature. As for themes and topics, season one is set to be a mixed bag of testing material. Not too complicated at the moment. The next break downs I believe would then be my fan fiction page and my fan portal page. I seriously need to keep up with the random requests for a steady schedule of star trek and harry potter based episodes. Further, I would like to increase my pretty much finished 8-9 Volumes of the Maou-sama no Machizukuri! ~Saikyou no Danjon wa Kindai Toshi~ . Next, I would like the catch up of my Marvel and DC related stories and images. They seem to catch quite some attention and I have both fear and hopes for their possible attention by the respected comic companies. Next, I think I have failed at properly showing the support and love towards Chinese web novels such as Against the Gods, Douluo Dalu, Tales of Demons and Gods and 1/2 Prince. Lastly, to focus on the updates of Hakai no Miko, Overlord, Re: Monster in my sites series updates (possible Shadow Hunters as well due to its rising popularity). While, my fan portal just needs an increase of my lovely tender fans not only commenting on my site and social media more but asking for such works.
The only thing I wish to break down is the works of @Outremusings. She is a frequent co-author on web novel series and fan fiction series such as: Star Trek, Hp 1, Hp 2, H x E and AHS. In addition, I have the honor of featuring on her new podcast series and promote her new website, undisclosedmusings.com.
As for these goals, if you have any questions, comments or concerns let me know. Because, trust me, I have a shit ton of them myself.
P.s. I also really need to figure out previous page and next page options don’t I?
She Works Hard For The Money – Donna Summer