Hi Hi Y’all…
Let’s get it out there: the world seems really fucked up for everyone right now. And I’m letting y’all know it probably won’t change for awhile. It’s a time where we all need to get together and be there for each other. Remind each other of all the things that make us laugh even though we are stuck home or even that it’s okay to be a bit blue for awhile.
As for me…
Well, I am almost done with my massive loads of schoolwork and am FINALLY going to return to my own new sort of schedule.
I’M GETTING BACK TO WORK.
So, guys… Here’s the new outlook plan for this summer: Chronicles series book 2 & 3, Finding Valhalla, Fan Fiction Splurge, Podcast Beginning at thecrowsnestco.blog and HAVING SOME FUN ADEVENTURES~
Wishing Y’all the best,
Rise Up – Andra Day
Let me say this, I love my mom. And I’ll say that as many times as I need to so it could be understood.
Our relationship is always this up and down roller coaster I’d rather not have chosen for myself.
The problem is it always feels like I am giving 80% of the effort to adjust or change a behavior to make the other person happy. That’s why all those good intentions and feelings she have always fall short. Especially, when I was younger.
Things have been better between us the last year and I honestly think it is because I have done a lot of growing up on my own over the last few years. Growing out of the childhood phase and into a more adulthood one means I’ve developed better control over how I process and unleash my feelings on her.
But something she said tonight is just one of those clear triggers that can undo years of progress: you may have to give up school for a year.
I had to say goodbye immediately out of not knowing what I would say. Because I have worked SO HARD to be where I am in life. SO FUCKING HARD. And I’m not going to even go into to it here because I don’t even know how to.
BUT I HAVE TO AT LEAST SAY WHAT WAS SAID TO SOMEONE IN SOME FORUM.
Because I am so scared of bottling these feelings inside me when I am still off my medication. I am so scared that these words came at a time when I am using all of my will power to remind myself how hard I’ve worked to get to where I am and how happy and proud of myself I should be.
It’s so hard for me to recognize that I am a person who wants to be alive because they can live for things sometimes and this is just comes rolling off a tongue so easily. Without even a consideration to the effort I put in to just waking up and not thinking it’s okay if I die today.
I love my mom but I also have times I really fucking hate her.
[ Confessions of a Teenage Poet ]
Alyssa Lies _ Emily Osment
Hi Hi Y’all,
I got to say it’s a weird feeling when you don’t have hope towards something but receiving a normal action still somehow gives you that feeling of disappointment.
My family has no idea how bad I recently got and I wasn’t planning on telling them. However, I was just in the mood today were I needed to talk. That’s all.
But as usual the second I called my mom all I heard was her problems. Her dissatisfaction with the rest of the family and what went wrong with her day.
I mean it’s not something that’s a big deal or should be. It just feels systematic I guess? Heavy on my shoulders and back.
Physically, I can feel my spine collapsing even more into me and myself hunching over. In all of these cases, never once has she ever asked how I am. Even if I texted her before something like ‘I want to go home.’
I’m not … or was expecting anything, but I don’t know why there’s still a part of me that feels that hurt every time. A small voice that always seems to sigh out,
“What about me?”
Somewhere I Belong – Linkin Park
Hi Hi Y’all~
Do you know it is common behavior for those in/out of mental health facilities to have developed habits of organization or habitual scheduling (At least those are my current words to describe it at the moment)?
I always saw it as an attempt to keep order and control within the chaos of feelings and emotions.
I don’t know if I ‘m right. I am by no means and expert or consulted one about it.
I can tell you that if this is true than I’m doing something similar to them.
I’m looking for order and control.
Since I will be off my mental health medication for an even longer amount of time I have to use the spur of clarity to form direction and purpose. In a controlled manner.
I have decided to focus on my site and the small projects I had on the side lines in order to help me stay organized until I can get back on medication. That means….
IT’S GOING TO BE AN UPDATE BANZAI FOR 2 MONTHS~
Look forward to it y’all! All those little tiny side projects and cute things that could make everything better has been pushed to the front of my agenda !
Hope you enjoy them all,
Work From Home – Fifth Harmony
Hi Hi Y’all~
It’s Halloweeen y’aaallll~
I was saving this upcoming [ #FFF ] Fan Fiction Friday for this exact day. Let us liiiive in the fantasy for one day of horror and treats. I have prepared for you all and for our crazy little Sam quiet a selection.
20 + New Chapters of Harry Potter
1 New Chapter of Eragon
2 New Chapter of Shadow Hunters
1 New Chapter of American Horror Story
1 New Chapter of A Demon Lord’s Tale
[ COMING SOON ] New Chapters in Chilling Adventures of Sabrina
Also, to remind you all and get your spirits up… Remember TOMORROW NANO WRI MO BEGINS~
ARE YOU SIGNED UP WITH BLOG? ON DISCOURSE? WITH ANYONE?
You should check Twitter for groups.
~ This is Halloween ~
Hi Hi Y’all,
Have you noticed every day this week one Fan Fiction has been updated? I like the idea of a hunt and chase soooo I’ll let you search for the new chapters.
However, since its been awhile here’s the reveal of one update!
Collected Records of Gozen Tomoe : 1
It’s a Bleach update, Y’all~~~
Bleach Live Action
Hi Hi Y’all~
I have been working on some site fixes! [ really as you see them update you’ll be like oh you finally got around to these. ]
1/2 Prince / A Demon Lord’s Tale: Dungeons, Monster Girls and Heartwarming Bliss / Against The Gods / Akame Ga Kill and American Horror Story
have all been updated AND had previous page / toc / next page formats added to them.
I.L. Knight & Co-writer JJHW
Akame Ga Kill OP
Hi Hi Y’all,
So, you know lots of Fan Fiction updates. Last week @outremusings and I delivered a mass of one of the most popular Fan Fiction on the site Star Trek. Of course, we have more~~~~
WE ARE UP TO 90 CHAPTERS!
Star Trek Great Moments