World Cup Blues :

Let me just say this y’all:

I forgot how tiring it is to be on the grind…. or even attempting to be.

I went from having no work to do and just dealing with life frustrations to having to deal with life frustrations, a shit ton of work and attempts to be on my own work spree. FINALLY, I have managed to push through enough of it to post some stuff again. Hopefully, I won’t be to tired after tomorrow’s PR event to add all the drafts I have on the site up.

Item #1 : WOROOOOORORORORORORLLLDLDLDLD CUP

I was rooting for Croatia…. I put money on Croatia…. The match against France was so sad. France was so hungry for it and Croatia just seemed beat up and tired…. After so many days of pushing myself and making sure I was still up to watch the game at one in the morning… can I even call that a good game?

Item #2 : Stepping on up this fashion game of mine

It is no secret that after dealing with my chronic health issues I have 100% revereted into complete comfy clothes is my entire life fashion style. But it may be a secret to some people that there are a select few times were I look at fashionable people with a little bit of envy. I want the confidence to try a whole bunch of styles. I want to walk out with more than sweats and jeans sometimes and be comfortable in my own skin. Shanghai is a blessing for this in a way. Being here is not only inspirational – almost everyone you see loves fashion, from all over the world and decades- but motivational. I am remembering what it is like to want to do my hair and make up if only a little. Some pain is worth it sometimes. If the day isn’t that bad I don’t have to be rocking sweat pants.

Just a quick introduction is all…

Love,

I.L. Knight

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Princess Jellyfish OP

 

 

 

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What On Earth Have I Done :

This may come as a shocker to most people, but I am decent with money. Well, the majority of the parts of it. I am great at saving it, investing it, drawing bottom lines of it or finding deals with it. However, I am not that adept at earning it. I don’t know whether you would say it is a lack of trade skills, resolution or work ethic, but I prefer to call it just a weird dissemblance in natural ability/luck.

However, I now find myself in a sticky situation. All I have is international credit cards and no way to really get cash in China (as in a steady stream of it in a reliable easy way). The reason why? I didn’t prepare enough… I mean don’t get me wrong, I did. Prepareth I have done.

The problem is there was so many other bigger reasons for me to cripple to my anxiety with that I forgot to do the important parts of the preparing for China. (1) I forgot to remind my mom that I can’t use an international card for everything and that means I’ll need cash in our joint account. (2) I forgot that I can’t rely on my mom 100%…

I’m not trying to be mean here, I’m just saying the fault is mine. I was curled up and ridden with anxiety about the stuff that seemed big and world ending that I forgot to secure the details… I forgot that I have to be almost completely independent in China and that asking for help can be too much for mom to handle at times…or my grandparents (for the different reasons that they).

Maybe, in a funny way again going to China has made me like a kid again – the closest I could ever get with my old old soul.

Now, I just need to find some money….since I can’t survive a 2nd day on RMB15….

I.L. Knight

p.s. I am already huuunnggrrrryyy

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Money Money Money – Mamma Mia

 

 

 

 

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Shanghai Disney Drama :

Let me just say this y’all,

Disney magic always comes with a price…

That being said, I was certainly not expecting to pay this certain toll fee…fees. Ugh, for the love of all that is holy some people can really just act like complete trash. Here’s the Disney scented Tea:

(1) Woke up at 5:30 in the morning, after not being able to sleep till 2:00 am, to be able to take the metro over to the hotel the group I was going with was staying. (2) Besides, the one who works with me the entire group decided they wanted to leave an hour later and didn’t want to tell us till morning of… They were still late. (3) We finally get there and then we have security issues. Two of the boys need to buy their tickets at the gate but get stopped by the local security for trying to sneak in RMB15 alcohol into the park. That’s about 2.20$ they didn’t want to give up…at a children’s park. Then the two other girls didn’t know how to pick up tickets, so we had to take extra time to collect theirs…but the worst part comes next. (4) when my friend and I left to pick up my DAS pass (Disability Access Service- which is a lifesaver and amazing) they walked off. Not once did they respond to our Wechat messages about where they were. (5) We were polite enough to let them know we were thinking about leaving about an hour and a half before the park closes. They asked to wait an hour. (6) When the hour was up they said we had to hurry up to the front of the park (we were all the way at the back of the park)…. If you have any chronic illness or have ever done a full day at Disney you should know hurry up doesn’t happen at that point. There is just exhaustion. (7) THOSE CUNTS LEFT WITHOUT US. DIDN’T EVEN SAY ANYTHING ABOUT IT AFTER 30+ MINUTES OF LOOKING FOR THEM AND WECHAT SPAMMING……

Y’all I am not that nice of a person. Especially when I am tired and cranky. I will probably fuck you up….

Lucky for the assholes we went with, after thanking G-d for one of us having enough cash to pay for a taxi home, finding a taxi home, finding a Starbucks that takes international cards and meeting a cute Chinese couple we got our butts home. The little bitches are very lucky…. They only got away with one polite message from me about their trash like behavior due to my companions uneasiness with speaking her feelings.

I hate trash like human beings…

I.L. Knight

P.s. Disney Shanghai was AMAZING. I had fun the entire day despite rude people. I would be glad to give y’all a list of recommendations if you want for another time.

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I’ll Make A Man Out Of You – Mulan

^the best version^

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Sick In China :

Dear All Y’all,

Gosh I have just been so bad lately at all of this haven’t I? Been getting sick, caught up in my feelings, or down on myself. Shoot, even now I am all of those things. In fact, I am currently staring out my apartment, at the little bit of Shanghai I can see, wondering how on Earth I could both get sick right before I was supposed to be at Disney or how- out of all my medications- I end up taking not enough anti-depressants…. Yea, definitely still in my normal heap of problems.

I will say this though…After being publicly sick for a few days and wondering how I haven’t ended up on Weibo yet I have come to a decision. I need to start struggling a little more again. The sort of struggling from trying to do things not just by existing.

That being said. Yes. I will be writing everyday, or doing something productive everyday even if it kills me. I got to get back to finding out who I am now and living a little.

I.L. Knight

P.s. Working at a magazine company has cleared up a few logistical things for me on online web publication so format changes will be going on to find out how to properly credit everyone and so forth~

 

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Here I Go Again – Whitesnake

 

 

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