Hi Hi Y’all,
I have for you MASSIVE STAR TREK UPDATES.
That is all…
Hi Hi Y’all,
I think I’ve met another situation where appreciation doesn’t equal the true understanding of emotional strength in a situation until one’s been in it before: the grind.
I grew up in a middle class family with typical crazy ass middle class problems. My biggest worries were always emotional and based on social dynamics. It’s the sort of crazy that seems particularly less of a problem for those of lower economic status. Where, food, shelter and education tend to be the more prominent concerns. I’m not going to sit here and lie and say I’m approaching that line. Mostly due to fear of a verbal smack down from a friend the first time my thoughts started to head in that direction.
What I will tell you is that for the first time I really am participating in needing to grind through to maintain a semblance of your former economic status.
Let me explain:
(1) Many people know the roots of many of my issues stem from family. This will not ever change. However, there is a way to relieve some of the stress in its most basic attachment, money dependency. If you cut strings that hold you dependent you can find room to breathe. The thought alone is nice, but it isn’t an immediate practical step for the majority kids in my possession. We were never taught to work, budget, or accept basic life style choices others have had to make.
(2) This is were the transition phase starts. Research on what you are exactly dependent on begins. Calculations are made and beautiful word documents created to try and summarize your life by numbers. From there you look at that scary truth and start to try and formulate a plan to afford to pay them. You get your first proper part time job. You start side hustles or free lance work here and there to get the few extra bits of cash. You even maybe get more than one credit card so you can do a new form of balancing act.
(3) Now, we’ve arrived at stage three. You’ve been really at this for awhile. You can sort of do the routine, but it isn’t perfect yet. Your life has become multiple part time jobs/freelancing, school and work comes first mentality, some of your old enjoyments are overpriced unnecessary goods and your new tittle has become minimum payment queen. Your natural 700s credit score is in the 600s because of choices you made to learn how to be an adult… Stage 3.
(4) This is what I mean when I say I am more than just appreciative towards those who are in the grind, because I am now in one as well. It doesn’t matter that my voice is cracked as hell, that my school assigned me a shit ton of work, that I wanted to write a book, or that I wanted to spend more time on myself. If it doesn’t fit in with the flow of the grind of the week it doesn’t fit in. It’s a no.
Yes, I am luckier than most. Yes, I probably shouldn’t ever say I have to live this life when I have people who will be there to catch me when I fall. HOWEVER, what I can say is that I am living a life that makes me my own person. I am living the life an adult. These tough decisions and annoying thought processes are now on my shoulders.
Living your life independent of attachments to others or of your own insecurities is a challenge. I think it is important to take a moment to realize all that you are doing to achieve the goal. You have to admit sometimes it sucks, your tired and you don’t want to do it. Then you need to be proud of yourself for still showing up for the fight.
That’s the grind…
Getting up over and over again.
Ain’t going to let anything stop me from standing up in the morning.
Hi Hi Y’all!
I know it seems as if I have done an almost complete black out the last two days with social media and contact with the outside world. I promise I wasn’t for once. I got scheduled to work every day this week (except one day) from 5pm to 12am. I also started school and set up my OSD stuff and health regimen. Essentially, I was busy and tired as hell.
BUT…. BUT BUT… I wasn’t abandoning you guys. OH NO. I have pushed through to pump out major Fan Fiction updates. I mean MAJOR.
AHS is now up to 24 chapters!
Star Trek is up to 46!
HP is about to 41!
AND THIS WEEKEND THERE WILL BE MASSIVE WEB NOVEL/MORE FAN FICTION UPDATES.
Also, if I have time I plan to FINALLY fix my patreon. I plan to add scheduled early release access, in depth looks at the draft process and possibly videos or google hangouts.
Lastly, I will be releasing new illustrations for as many as my works as possible!
OH SHIT WAIT. TIME TO PLUG~
Down below is the link for my debut web novel (novella) A Tale Of Shadow & Light. It is book one of a Dark (what I refer as actually realistic) high fantasy called Chronicles.
Please check it out!
A Tale Of Shadow & Light
Volume 1 H x E
Out in early February
Hi Hi Y’all!
We have massive flood of Fan Fiction updates for you~~~
First off we have our first Harry Potter RP updated to 39 chapters!
Our American Horror Story has reached 20 chapters!
AND our final one is the addition of Star Trek! 12 Chapters!!!
Hi HI Y’all!
I have been giving up on the few precious hours of sleep I could possibly have to send you so many updates this weekend and this upcoming week. SO MUCH. Just to give you the general rundown there was the addition of STARWARS and Soul Eater to the Fan Fiction page. Plus, DC Comics Outlaws was updated~~~ AND the super secret forced podcast I was made to do started this Saturday ( on the crowsnestco.blog ) For early access to any of these I shall remind you it’s just 1$ on a month on my patreon (https://www.patreon.com/ilknight )… Which you will notice had been updating like craaazy~ And will continue to do so as I have already ready to post stuff for Chronicles: Slaves of Desires and Confessions of a Teenage Poet which haven’t seen the light of day anywhere yet. So first access will be a thing for sure!
Please enjoy guys~
P.S. I’m actually working for a company that’s looking for bloggers, writers, illustrators and editors if y’all are looking. Just DM me~
Hi Hi Y’all.
It turns out being over tired and hungry are a powerful creative force. Somehow, I came up with an entire draft for a new DC Fan Fic series, but strangely based on John Constantine. I’m posting the idea draft to see if anyone is interested.
Hi Hi Y’all…
So, I am super sick today and have not left bed. BUT I tried to be productive about uploading to make up for things. Here is an update flood!
First, we have three new chapter of American Horror Story Fan Fiction!
Second, we have an old long poem I forgot to add to the site!
Third, we have a chapter update for my Marvel House of M Reprise.
Marvel Chapter 4
Lastly, we have my first drafts of the first three chapters of my Originals Fan Fiction.
That’s probably, most likely, maybe, going to be the most you get out of me this weekend.
Hi Hi Y’all,
I’ve been feeling really hard core super down the last two days for reasons I AIN’T GOING TO MENTION SO GET OVER IT! But, life has to keep moving so here’s some updates.
Just for the next few days I’m only accepting positive comments or I’m deleting them. I just need happiness and goodness for a bit.
Still Love Y’all,